It's the last sleep till Christmas

So, here I am, sitting in my old bedroom at my parent's house in Franklin, TN. I haven't been here in about a year. It's amazing how little things seem to change here. It's amazing how much has changed since I was here last year. I don't think there has been a more roller coaster like year in my life to date. It's been fun, but it's also been tough. I've learned so much about life, about myself, what I want, what makes me happy, and what doesn't. And the answers are all so suprising and predictable at the same time.

I've learned that you can't make everyone happy. Not everyone will approve of the things you do, but this shouldn't stop you from doing what you feel you gotta do. What is right for you might not be right for someone else. If you live constantly trying to win the approval of other people, you'll never find happiness. True happiness comes from knowing who you are and what you want to do with your life. Its YOUR life, not theirs, live it the way you want, you only get one chance.

I've learned that I can be my own worst enemy. I think I always knew this though. I have a lot to offer the world, I can do whatever I set my mind to, I just have to get out of my own way and let myself be.

I've learned that life is too short. Life is too short to not follow your dreams, to settle for the mediocre, to say what you think, to work hard but play harder, to fret about tomorrow, to care what people think, to constantly be straddling the fence, to love half-heartedly. You get out of the universe what you put into the universe. You might as well go all in.

Whoever reads this very infrequently updated blog, I wish you a merry christmas...I hope its filled with laughter, love, and the people you care about most. I know mine will be....sort of ;)

~*Jessica*~